As I sit in my room curled up with crumpled up, tear stained, tissues surrounding me and Taylor Swift on repeat; I can’t help but feel God with me.

Recently I have been going through quite a lot in my personal life that I have been struggling with. I have been going through a phase where I have been doing everything in my power to somehow create a positive mindset, and this has got to be one of the hardest things I have been dealing with. However today I was scrolling through Facebook and I came across an article that caught my attention. While reading through this article I came across one line that just punched me in my stomach, like I have not been able to get my mind off of this line, “Look. He didn’t pinky promise us that we won’t get hurt…”.

As I read that, something just clicked in me. God did not promise us that we would never get hurt. He did promise us that the pain we feel has a purpose. And that every ounce of pain we feel is just bringing us one step closer to so much joy that is coming. How can you not be overwhelmed with comfort when you think of that? God’s love is something so unreal that so many of us can’t even wrap our minds around.

I have been through my fair share of broken hearts in my 19 years, and every one of them seems like they’ll never go away; but they do. God heals the broken hearted and he hears all of our cries and prayers. I personally have cried and prayed to God with everything I have in me to take the pain away and he did. He does things in his own clever way and in his own timing (which is always perfect).

As most of you know I pray for my future husband every day. My prayer used to consist of hoping that he was doing well, that he had a relationship with the Lord, and that we would meet very soon (It’s all in God’s timing, not mine). But recently my prayers have changed up a bit. I have started praying for God to give me the guidance to face the challenges that come before me. I pray for God to lead me in the path that I will best be able to honor and glorify him (which is by being a teacher). I pray that my future husband is out there finding the Lord, and that he turns to him in every struggle that he faces. I pray that he prays for me as well and that he is a man that truly loves and worships the Lord. And I no longer pray to meet him soon (even if that would be great), instead I pray for the patience to wait for God’s timing as to when he wants to bring him into my life. And I also pray for my future kids (even if that is way in the future, I mean what could it hurt?). I pray that they are born happy and healthy and all live long and happy lives and that they all have a relationship with God and place all their trust in him.

These things that I have been praying for all come with God’s timing, and that has been one thing that I have accepted lately. I have been burdened with such a heavy heart over the past few months and coming to the realization that God never promised us that we wouldn’t have to face pain and heartbreak has just completely changed my outlook on life. All our pain has a purpose. And there will come a day when all the pain we have felt will make perfect sense, as for now just have hope in the Lord and trust with all your heart.