As I sit here in bed and listen to Beyoncé on repeat while eating my white chocolate truffles all alone, I can not help but feel anything but contentment. Many people (especially my family) like to often ask me if I am dating anyone or if I have been talking to anybody. When the questions begin to arise I just look at them and laugh, because honestly my love life at the moment is seriously a joke; however I am perfectly fine with that. I actually couldn’t be happier on my own. And I am going to tell you why.

I am only 18 years old, and I truly feel like this is a time in my life where I am meant to be figuring out who I am and what I want to do with my life. Of course I do get lonesome on the occasion, especially when I begin to see all of the tweets about ‘relationship goals’ and all the overly adorable holiday couple pictures on my Instagram feed. I am not in any way trying to put down on anybody in a relationship, I am just stating why I feel like I do not need to be in one right now.

My PaPaw was on the phone with my dad one day and I was sitting on the couch by my dad and I began to overhear the conversation ( I heard my name come up and became very interested in the conversation). My dad said “No, She hasn’t been going out with anyone here lately”. And then that topic of conversation apparently changed. When my dad got off the phone I asked him what my PaPaw had said about me dating, and apparently he said that I was just being too picky. Too picky? I didn’t know that was actually a thing. At that moment I began to question if I was being ‘too picky’. I quickly came to the conclusion that… HECK NO I AM NOT BEING TOO PICKY!!! Why should I go out with someone that I see no future with? A relationship like that would not be beneficial on either part. I have my standards and I refuse to lower them. They’re really understandable, but this day in age it is hard to find a guy that meets the requirements. I want him to be kind, love adventure, have a good personality, be a Christian, and be honest and faithful. I do not think that these are outrageous standards at all.

I am in no hurry whatsoever to be settled down. One day I hope to be, but today is not that day. Don’t get me wrong I have the wedding I want planned out on Pinterest, right along by my dream house. I have the dreams of having my own family, but that is waaaaay on down the road. I have a passion for traveling and I want to see new parts of the world while I am young, I want to make memories with my friends, and I want to live an exciting life. I feel like if I were in a relationship that I wouldn’t be able to do these things. This is a time in my life where I have no clue what I want, and I most certainly do not want to be bringing another person along with me down that path. When the time comes that I find someone that I am completely crazy over I am sure my mindset will change, but for now this is how I feel. I do not want to be tied down at this age, I don’t want my world to revolve around some guy right now, I want my world to revolve around me finding myself and growing closer with God. I feel like so many young people are rushing their lives away, and I don’t want to do that; I want to live each day for what it is… a gift that we will only ever get to experience once. I want to live my life with no regrets. And if me being ‘too picky’ or ‘too independent’ is my problem, then oh well. I need to become closer with God before I can even imagine being married. I want my future husband and I to be a couple that not only grows closer together over time, but also grows closer to God together. And until I find that man , I am fine being on my own. I like my freedom and independence. And I LOVE being a single lady (at least at the moment anyway!).